The easiest control I can gain, is not having you in the game. You are to good to be true, and I secretly hope that behind the clouds heaven is always blue. A place where the sun warms and shines through, I know I will never find someone like you. The moment I can stop drawing illusions and dare to face a challenge, my life will be more balanced. If I dare to believe in love again, is when saying to myself always give someone new a second chance. The shades of grey washes my intellect away. But between you and me, the most difficult part, is when I listen to my heart.
The lights are turned off, I am suppose to sleep, but I am lying here listening to my own heartbeat. My inner goddess burns with desire and lust, the passion; for me it is a must. The love, the attention, the power and game, finding someone who stays the same. One person that I can trust and respect – a gentleman and best friend, a man that will stay with me to the end. I still know I am the selfish kind, the woman that can push any man to the ground. Is it me that acts without shame, or haven´t I met the man yet that can have me tamed? All I know is that my soul is longing to be found, the kind that will make my head spin around. But for tonight, another sleepless night. I am picturing the fairytale with the perfect start – the one where you catch but also release my heart…
I am walking around trying to catch the city sound. People rush by, no eyes meet, are they too shy? Or has the busyness captured their attention, leaving out all reflections? So many smiles for free, but to receive them you have to actually see. Meet the eyes of the people walking from A to Z, take time reveal that its ok to even say hi. Allowing your posture and arms to move softly, but not carefree, like me. I continue my adventure in the hectic surrounding, only to be disturbed by the voice of my love; “there you are darling”…
When you´re lonely, you turn to me making me believe I am your only.
When I give you my all, you don´t catch me, but let me fall.
Not madly in love with who you are, but showing the kind of love that leaves my heart scared.
So if I am ready to proceed, indeed…
Alone, to follow my dreams building me into becoming the best person I can be, one day you will see.
I hope you understand that this is my little secret protest, cause to me; “the us” has never been any form of contest.
I offered you me, my thoughts, my heart, that´s the scary part.
But I will rather be the person chasing passion and true love, cause the world can be so superficial and ice-cold.
I have to carry my own steps and choose my path, always believe that somewhere out there someone will wish we never spend time apart.
Thank you for taking time, showing me the highs and lows, finally my passion glows.
It shines through, cause I know it will never be us two.