“Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress. Don´t strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.”

My dear friends, readers, haters and unknown.
I once read “Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress. Don´t strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt.” So here it goes, my appreciation for applause, the need to impress and the strive to make my presence noticed. Because no matter how I twist and turn it, I´m that kind of person. The one that can´t only work for a cause, the one that can´t stand the thought of not impressing and the person that needs to be noticed.
I find joy in learning, I feel excitement when trying something new, I expect success when I work, I truly care for my family and friends, but at times I don´t know where the line between a saint and a sinner is drawn. So I reflect, without being corrected. Run away into my own world, making a vision of the future and judge the insanity from my point of view.
How to move from a circle of chaos to a lifetime with success. What do I want to do? How do I make my family and friends feel loved and appreciated? Is it possible to share the ups and downs without seeing yourself as the example of how life and relations should walk hand in hand in order to get the happily ever after?
The days of self realization is apparently here, but how do I grow into the person I want to be? Do I have the values to live up to what I preach? Where do I find the humbleness and courage to dear to hope for success?
I have failed, many times. And what does not kill you make you stronger, right? Work for a cause. Indeed I try, but I know I can always try harder, be better, think more about others and … How? Working for a career, I have to study hard. Knowledge don´t come easy, you have to be ready, be persistent and understand that some elements of wisdom comes with growth and not necessarily with how much theory your able to swallow, memorize or read. That makes me humble, and it awakes my curiosity. Because if I once in the future were to become a parent, I would like to be just as wise as my parents. To have the same security they have provided for me. I want my children to have someone to look up to, and yet be able to develop their own individuality. Be the solid rock, the emotional angel, the Einstein of wisdom and the Obama of beliefs. There are days when my self-esteem is beaten to the ground. Where is my fan-group, the people that salutes you outsides the main entrance after working your ass of in the background. No one sees, they just expect. I can surely admit that I could be a rock-star those days – feel the love and appreciation of people on the streets.
The likes and comments on Facebook, the followers on Twitter, and the new connections on Linkedin. The hidden applause.
Who are we without the people that appreciate our existence?
The aspects of reflections, the powerful words and the characters used to describe who I want to be. I have role-models; my parents, my friends, lifes saint and sinners combined with the influence of ancient thinkers, todays politicians and the surroundings of a fast moving society. If I ever make it “right”, I will never know. But I can take one step at a time. Use the wisdom of the people I look up to to improve my every-day life. Show affection even though it might turn its back against me. Open my mind for different point of views, not stribe to perfection. Because as far as I can see it, I have been given the most amazing gift of all – my individuality.
I don´t expect standing ovation, just a little applause.. And be sure to know I will support your likes, I´ll continue to comment, I´ll add you as a linkedin connection and be the one that sends you a textmessage I know you wont respond to. Because in the end I guess all I want is to make my presence noticed rather than live with the illusion of my absent felt.
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